Injury - 1 year and countinng

Well - it was 1 year ago today that I was last able to run!! I can't beleive it's taking this long - I am very, very sad today!! I can't stop crying which I know is really stupid because I have so much to be thankful for - it's just that I worked so hard to get there to actually be able to run and I vowed I would keep running after the marathon - I really want to be a runner! It's been a tough year - and I still have some sort of pull/pain when I walk at anything other than a regular pace/distance!

Of course - I've gained weight and my clothes don't fit me! Always a reason to cry! ;-)

My husband has been great but he's had enough too! So - I try not to ask him to do too many things - especially things he always did anyway - but they are not getting done and it's really hard - for the record - I given up on clearing up the piles of stuff, the dishes and taking out the trash (those things get done when they get done) - what I would like this morning is to be able to use the hot tub - we have one of those awesome always hot - hot tubs in the backyard (yes - another thing to be thankful for) but we haven't been in it in months - he doesn't put chlorine in it regularly and my shoulder doesn't allow me too - so there you go!! Now the fact that my back has been so very tight from not being able to sleep in positions I usually do should mean that I spend more time in the hot tub not less!!

Did I tell you that now my stomach is bothering me from the drugs after surgery and probably my anxiety over this 1 year anniversary? I've never had stomache problems in my life - until now! So - now I'm trying figure out what, when and how much I should eat that won't bother me! My sister the DR - recommended Prilosec otc which I have taken for 3 days now - it's helping some but it's not perfect yet!

One thing truly does lead to another - so take good care of yourselves - stretch, ice and listen to your body - so you don't end up like me!

I'm sorry for all this whining!! Thanks for listening!